Sip sip

I saw two shooting stars last night. I wished on them, but they were only satellites. Is it wrong to wish on space hardware? I wish, I wish, I wish you’d care. 

Wondering if I’ve made a mistake here. Maybe I should have ignored the efforts to fix this and just move on. It would hurt but so does this. 

Argh, I wish I had money, I could go and do things instead of sitting around the house, this would be so much easier. 

I wish I knew how to stop dreaming. All I dream about is him leaving over and over, then I wake up and cry. This is horrible. I want to go home to escape all this but I’m so lonely there. 

I know it’s terrible, but I’m actually hoping this scare isn’t for nothing just so I’ll have someone here.